Tuesday

Decision of our lives

I was sick yesterday and a little worst today. I guess I couldn't sleep at all with my throat so painful. I guess when I am sick the tolerance of pain goes down to 0. Anyway, GY smsed me yesterday regarding YEP. It's a youth expetidtion project up to yunnan and they are looking for people to help organize this program. From 1 Dec to 20 Dec.... I thought it would be going there to spent time with the children and build some house for them.

To my surprise, it's about energy conservation project. To educate the whole village about it.. WOW, it's totally different from what I have expected. TOTALLY. I was sitting in front of the computer thinking, so, am I ready to take up this project. I have lots lots of things running thru my head [includeds the flu virus] ...

At that moment, I reallie wonder if I can do it. Leading a group up to a terrain that I do not know ... Teaching them about stuff I do not know ... And if we do not do a good job, consequences would be dire?? I dunno.... Puzzling things I would say. Very puzzling...

Sounds reallie interesting and challenging. If I do go, it would be nice on my resume + good experience. BUT I wouldn't be able to go down to states with my sister as planned. I thought it would be nice to be spending time with her this holiday...

 
Decision
Decision
Decision

I reallie hate Aargon, the wishy washing person. Now, I find myself being quite like him...

princess maddie.